|The writing hand|
These recent events sparked the first stages of this post...the unconscious ordering of things in mind and heart that eventually becomes an outline of sorts. That interior writing revealed itself in my windows this morning.
I awoke at my usual weekend time and rumpled my way over to the blinds just in time to witness the most extraordinary blue...deep, full...a blue to inspire and free, a blue to refresh even the murkiest thought or uncertain cloudiness of heart. Standing there, stretching to my fullness in front of the windows to both offer more of myself to God and receive with openness and exposure whatever this newest day might bring, it suddenly occurred to me that the only reason I was able to do this--the reason I am able to wonder, wander, discover, and reveal, was thanks to the generosity of someone I will never know.
I had surgery in 2001. Because of excessive bleeding in the operation, I needed to receive several pints of blood. Blood that an unknown someone thought to donate. In both tangible and mystical ways, I was not alone in that moment of early morning vitrine grace.
Another thing that can be done with paper and a pen... a record of thanksgiving. So I wrote my thanks while sitting on the third tier of a newly adopted "thought spot" that also happens to serve a good latte.
Then I went to the public library. And instead of just turning two score and two, you'd have thought I was twelve again. One of the reasons I became a librarian was because of my experience in libraries as a child. There was NO place more freeing to me. Anything I could imagine reading about was there for my consumption, my touching, tasting in speech, feasting on with eyes and mind, contemplating in heart... So it was this morning. I wandered everywhere and removed tomes with glee, building the mountain I would take home to climb! A transcribed interview with Frida Kahlo as well as a book of photographs of her diaries, paintings, letters, home? YES! Julia Child's letters with Avis Devoto? OF COURSE! Two new cookbooks? WHEE! Portrait photography from Annie Leibowitz? SURE! A murder mystery? THAT TOO! A copy of one of my all time favorite books that I may or may not actually re-read, but it feels right to spend time with it again one way or another? ADD IT!
I will likely read most of these while sitting in front of the windows in my room on a two cushion couch which has resting on it my journal, a notebook, and several pens in a small pouch. And I will again give thanks for such adventure as my life holds.